I turned 33 on Monday, and enjoyed every bit of my birthday weekend with my sisters. It was a great time to be had by all and I am now grateful that God has blessed me to live another year. I want so many things for myself, but I received a great revelation the other day. I realized that while I am praying for God to send me a husband, praying that God bless me financially, praying that I become an even better writer, I have been seeking God the wrong way. It's not that what I was asking for was wrong per se. I just wasn't asking for them the right way. I was being much too selfish regarding these areas.
Instead of praying for God to send me a husband, I need to be praying FOR my husband. I know God has promised that I would have a family of my own. He has promised me that since I was a little girl. I know it is going to happen, so instead of praying in doubt, I am going to pray like my husband is standing right here in front of me. I am going to pray for him like I already know him and we are well acquainted. I am going to pray for his health, spiritual walk with Christ, pray for him as he faces challenges on a daily basis, pray his strength in God. I am going to pray that God bless his hands and everything he endeavors to do. I am going to pray for his dreams, his goals, his aspirations. I am going to pray that he fulfill everything God has mandated him to do in this life. I am going to pray that he become a great husband and father. I am not going to pray for him to come; I am going to pray FOR him.
Instead of praying that God bless me financially so I can do everything in my heart, I am going to learn how to give more, sowing into fertile ground. I am going to give and pour out of myself into the lives of the people around me. I am going to invest my time, energy, and even money into the places where lives can be impacted - both in church and outside of the four walls.
Instead of praying that I become an even better writer, I am praying that God use my words to impact a nation. I am asking God to use the talent that He has given me to influence many, many people - even when my body is decaying and my spirit has gone on to be with Him. Words transcend time, space, physical limitations. Words are life (or death - depending on how you use them).
I haven't been praying the right prayers. It isn't a way to manipulate God. It is a means to change my focus and change the impact of my prayer life. It is NOT all about me. It is NOT all about MY husband (he has his own life to live, now and after we are married), MY money (it has a life of its own as well), and MY books (they have the power to impact lives if I let God use me beyond even those lives I have the liberty to bear witness to).
So now it's time to change the way I pray...
At 33, it took me a whole lifetime to realize this.
2 comments:
That was awesome. My devotional for yesterday talked about changing the way we pray- about how we should focus on the power of God and what he is capable of doing instead of first asking for things.
I'm going to follow your lead. What good is a husband without the qualities that you want?
And yes! Sowing is the way that we reap.
God most definitely wants to use us. He is already using you, so I can't wait to see the rest of the story.
Happy Belated!
Thank you so nuch FullComplexity. I didn't really realize there was something wrong with how I was praying until I heard my pastor talk about it at Tuesday night Bible study. The jist of it is this: we need to get the mind of God about a circumstance, making sure we are truly praying His will and not our own, and exercise faith beyond the prayer itself by living like the answer is already given. Faith is something we have to live in and not just have on Sundays or have for a brief moment.
Thanks for the response!
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